The Singles Aren't The Selfish Ones
Revisiting the "Selfish" article http://dragonatrix.blogspot.com/2012/09/selfish.html To surmise, the claim was that I was selfish because I was not in a relationship and didn't want one in any form (no friends with benefits, no one night stands, no dating, no third marriage). It's been over another year since the claim and still don't want any of these. I've been celibate and refusing any dates. WHY? Because the PTSD has me by the nuts and it's actually causing me harm to consider being with someone. When someone gives me attention like that I end up with a panic attack, part of me convinced these people will be a repeat of the past assholes. I'm not as violent as I used to be, but I still get my violent moments on bad days. Just when I think I'm over everything, the dreams come back and I either can't sleep or wake too fucked in the head to do much but cry. Gods why can't people understand this? I've literally had to put warnings...