A Child of Tiamat Ponders
I have long been feeling lost, disconnected and wondering what I am doing still here. This has started somewhat a year ago when I had to give up practice (for reasons I cannot remember now) and has been eating at me. I have always despised the form I am in while in the physical plane; I feel trapped, powerless and like I'm being punished by being here. I hear from my teachers and guides that I am here to do my job (spread chaos into people's lives so they can get past blockages and utter destruction to those who earn it), that my path is one I need to walk alone and there are lessons here that I can only learn while being in this form. These are not comforts to me, but they make me trudge on when I am otherwise dragging my feet. While reading from the Grimoire of Tiamat I have been able to make connections that make the above not as bad as I have been perceiving them to be. First off with my form; I have loathed humans for being slave creations of the bastard gods who ros...