Visions Made Real
I have had more than a few prophetic dreams in my life. I can usually tell when it is either prophetic or dealing with a psychological issue because those are the only times I dream as a human. But so far for this year can show the freakish level of detail I get. I will put the dream in brackets, the actual is normal.
An Attempt to Kill:
{I was at my friend's house for the first time. I was on one of two couches sitting with a male near me. One of her roommates got too close to me and I lounged over the couch to try to kill him. I was subdued gently until I calmed down. I cried in a bathroom while a brindle coloured pit bull licked my face constantly. I was given Valium to help calm me down til I could function.}
On New Years I was at my friend's for the first time. She did in fact have two couches. I was sitting at one while a director I work with (how her and I met) was on another. He said something that set off my PTSD. I blacked out, went off of the couch trying to kill him. Without touching me the others in the house sequestered me and kept him away til he could be removed. The rest of my stay was spent trying to calm down with a xanax, talking, some back rubs and a brindle coloured english bull dog licking me constantly trying to pull out my emotions. She is an official PTSD animal, all of the animals are and were up my rear my stay.
Unexpected Encounter:
{I had a romantic dream about one of the men in her home who I had no interest in. We were drawn together by species, both dragons.}
Believe it or not, despite best efforts to keep to my "I hate men, I'm forever celibate" we almost laid together. It just kind of happened, but stopped before anything serious could happen. I spent some months with emotional back lashes from this, anything dealing with sex, being touched or relationships sets off my PTSD.
I seem to be having relationship style dreams of another person I may see this summer if all goes to plan. O.o feels like I might be in for another round of anxiety if I'm not careful.
One from 09/10 that messed me up pretty hard. I had it while pregnant with my longest lasting pregnancy and with my twin flame who left me for my surrogate mother and shamanic healer.
{I could see with every detail the son growing inside of me. He was beautiful. He told me a few names he'd like, Robert, Nikolai, and Adrian. My exhusband and I were very happy as we raised him in the ways of dragons.}
I miscarried and he left me for someone I had seen as a surrogate mother to me. They are now married with children, their first born was a male who looked identical to the one in my dreams. I became very angry, I felt that she stole my entire life: my will to live, my twin flame, my love and trust and then, my son....
An Attempt to Kill:
{I was at my friend's house for the first time. I was on one of two couches sitting with a male near me. One of her roommates got too close to me and I lounged over the couch to try to kill him. I was subdued gently until I calmed down. I cried in a bathroom while a brindle coloured pit bull licked my face constantly. I was given Valium to help calm me down til I could function.}
On New Years I was at my friend's for the first time. She did in fact have two couches. I was sitting at one while a director I work with (how her and I met) was on another. He said something that set off my PTSD. I blacked out, went off of the couch trying to kill him. Without touching me the others in the house sequestered me and kept him away til he could be removed. The rest of my stay was spent trying to calm down with a xanax, talking, some back rubs and a brindle coloured english bull dog licking me constantly trying to pull out my emotions. She is an official PTSD animal, all of the animals are and were up my rear my stay.
Unexpected Encounter:
{I had a romantic dream about one of the men in her home who I had no interest in. We were drawn together by species, both dragons.}
Believe it or not, despite best efforts to keep to my "I hate men, I'm forever celibate" we almost laid together. It just kind of happened, but stopped before anything serious could happen. I spent some months with emotional back lashes from this, anything dealing with sex, being touched or relationships sets off my PTSD.
I seem to be having relationship style dreams of another person I may see this summer if all goes to plan. O.o feels like I might be in for another round of anxiety if I'm not careful.
One from 09/10 that messed me up pretty hard. I had it while pregnant with my longest lasting pregnancy and with my twin flame who left me for my surrogate mother and shamanic healer.
{I could see with every detail the son growing inside of me. He was beautiful. He told me a few names he'd like, Robert, Nikolai, and Adrian. My exhusband and I were very happy as we raised him in the ways of dragons.}
I miscarried and he left me for someone I had seen as a surrogate mother to me. They are now married with children, their first born was a male who looked identical to the one in my dreams. I became very angry, I felt that she stole my entire life: my will to live, my twin flame, my love and trust and then, my son....
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