I'm Done, Just Done...

I would have loved you in every definition of the word. From the purest heart's love to the cosmic, spiritual, soul entwining love. You seemed different, you were not like the other men here; yet here we stand.

Over the past seven months I've over looked 4 or 5 incidents that pointed towards you were scoping other women. I was upset but didn't make a deal because you didn't claim me. But after all of this marriage talk and monogamous promises I held you to a higher standard. Heathens may have different ethics and far fewer spiritual laws, but we have a strict adherence to oaths. For example I have a death pact with a dear friend of mine, we vowed to die in each other's presence (attend each other's assisted suicide or die fighting side by side) which is a more sacred vow than even marriage since it is the last act you will ever do. We don't take promises lightly. I made the promise of monogamy just as serious. Apparently you didn't since you joined a singles hook up app, ty G+ for telling me. I guess since you think you're single, I can think of myself single too. You even let me have a few days to think this through without even asking why I was being quiet.

Funny how you said you would show me how a real wife should be treated, because you did just that. Husbands are always lying, cheating, assholes who do just that and may add abuse to make things interesting. I've seen it growing up and lived it a few times. Congrats you've lived up to being just another typical male. And btw since I'm a high priestess, the sacred prostitute and sex during holy rituals are things I'm kinda expected to do unless I'm partnered with someone who views it as a problem and I know the sacred prostitute is still around in Islam via temporary marriages. I also energy feed off of sex so there definitely would have been more than enough avaliable if not a second guy needed tied in a corner for when you weren't there or able to (damn missing the hormone that shuts off the sex drive). If you had not lied I could still have been yours for the duration of the trip even if I belonged to others when I'm here.

I spent the past two days deciding if I was going to run a game on you to wait until after I was there and back to break this to you or give you more respect than you gave me by the behind the back shyte and just be up front. I know I'll never trust you again, especially you saying anything about me being your one and only. I feel incredibly stupid for allowing myself to remotely believe in it. I guess it was nice to matter to someone for once even if it wasn't real. I also know I don't have the energy to run a long con to do a "show what you're losing" by waiting til after I go and return. So might as well just go my way now. Not that I'll be missed, I'm always easily replaced as men always prove time and again.

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