Spiritually Modified Defined
What Does Being Spiritually Modified Mean? I have pondered upon this and for once I have been all over the place in finding the words to write especially since I was trying to keep this strictly within the body modification realm. I will admit that I have not been in the right mind this year and very dissociated from myself so I cannot seem to connect to the part of me who channels the words my conscious cannot muster, but I shall do my best.
To define what being "spiritually modified" means is a life-long journey unto itself. I don't know if I can fully answer this at the moment since it raises more questions than answers. Separately the terms define as follows. Spiritual refers to the supernatural. It is one's soul and the connection with the energy currents that run through the Universe. Modified has a polar definition: it is augmented, changed and converted, yet diminished, restricted and limited at the same time. Literally it can be defined as "a changed soul," but is the soul augmented, diminished, or has it altered form? If it has been altered into one state, will it cycle to another? Is this cycle part of our growth instead of growth being linear?
There are many techniques to alter your soul, as well as events that can alter your soul. The most obvious is meditation or other trance-work. This helps you quiet your mind and get in touch with the body, energy currents, a spiritual being, or your true self. You can learn, communicate, work on issues, go through lessons, heal wounds, etc. while in trance. You are using spiritual energy to work on these things instead of the flesh or the grey matter. You can be one with nature. For me I only truly feel at home when I'm in the ocean, especially at night. I feel like I'm connected to the energy current my soul comes from, one with the Mother. You can channel yourself, a being or deity through the arts: automatic writing, automatic drawing/painting, transcendental dance, just to name a few. When you do these things without consciously directing it, you reveal what lies within on the higher planes. Modification and manipulation of the flesh is a very powerful method and one I've been doing instinctively since I was a child.I will fast and deny sleep to push my mind to kick into gear for something I'm trying to achieve. All of the above can be integrated into rituals. For example, I have various forms of light scarification and blood play for religious ceremony and weaving spell work into my flesh. All rituals, even if they are not integrating one of the above, do modify your soul to one degree or another. Now these have been typical knowledge for spiritual growth, but since modification can go two ways there are things that can happen to you that alter your soul. Being in love is one such thing. This can be for the better as in the grand feeling you get when you are with someone who you love. It can also be a major detriment, when it goes wrong it can rip you apart even spiritually. Death affects most, your soul aches for those who you have lost unless you rejoice for their transition. Abuse will also cause trauma to your soul, especially when it is severe enough to nearly kill you or make you want to kill yourself. It causes a sickness that is not easily healed within your soul. Along with abuse, betrayal can rip you apart the worst. Whether it is abandonment or someone who breaks your explicit love and trust, it creates a rift that ripples in your future and can prevent any progression until you heal.
To write this I have looked within and back upon my progression and well regression. I have noticed that there seems to be a cycle of augmentation and diminishment over the decades. I was raised in a way that gave me little to no self-worth, my spirit felt greatly repressed by this. Having to hide who and what I was to avoid negative repercussions, going back into my egg so to speak. As a teen I was in a different situation and I started to spiritually awaken as I could finally emerge as myself. I hatched and grew, even though it created a bit of a psychosis since I didn't understand what was going on. I landed in an abusive marriage, but he let me explore myself as I chose how. Despite being able to be spiritually open, I suffered because of being beaten, shot, stabbed, etc. by the man who supposedly loved me. My spirit suffered, broken like my body, yet not healing as quickly, it diminished back into hiding. I got divorced and worked many introspective techniques to heal myself, I started to emerge and grow again. I thrived, especially after I fell in love with and married someone who was a soul mate, grew exponentially despite his mental and emotional abuse. When he left my soul shattered like a giant mirror hit with a nuke, I even suffered a reality break and my heart broke (literally, I had anxiety attacks to the level I had daily minor heart attacks). After several years of working with all of the above techniques I have begun to pick up the pieces. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to heal it all, I still feel soul-sick.
Obviously I have been employing many techniques: trance-work, blood rites, rituals, spending time in the ocean and in the arts. I am orchestrating a transformation to bring my soul's appearance on the outside. I feel that these practices not only rip open my subconscious, but they bind my body and soul together to work as one (which they don't usually, there is a distinction between the two since my soul seems to have a disdain for humans). I have this drive in the back of my mind that if I can morph my body into a more recognizable vessel for my soul then it may calm down and not be so resentful to be here. I could be more at one with myself, work towards healing my soul, and work towards purely healing myself and becoming who I am supposed to be.
To define what being "spiritually modified" means is a life-long journey unto itself. I don't know if I can fully answer this at the moment since it raises more questions than answers. Separately the terms define as follows. Spiritual refers to the supernatural. It is one's soul and the connection with the energy currents that run through the Universe. Modified has a polar definition: it is augmented, changed and converted, yet diminished, restricted and limited at the same time. Literally it can be defined as "a changed soul," but is the soul augmented, diminished, or has it altered form? If it has been altered into one state, will it cycle to another? Is this cycle part of our growth instead of growth being linear?
There are many techniques to alter your soul, as well as events that can alter your soul. The most obvious is meditation or other trance-work. This helps you quiet your mind and get in touch with the body, energy currents, a spiritual being, or your true self. You can learn, communicate, work on issues, go through lessons, heal wounds, etc. while in trance. You are using spiritual energy to work on these things instead of the flesh or the grey matter. You can be one with nature. For me I only truly feel at home when I'm in the ocean, especially at night. I feel like I'm connected to the energy current my soul comes from, one with the Mother. You can channel yourself, a being or deity through the arts: automatic writing, automatic drawing/painting, transcendental dance, just to name a few. When you do these things without consciously directing it, you reveal what lies within on the higher planes. Modification and manipulation of the flesh is a very powerful method and one I've been doing instinctively since I was a child.I will fast and deny sleep to push my mind to kick into gear for something I'm trying to achieve. All of the above can be integrated into rituals. For example, I have various forms of light scarification and blood play for religious ceremony and weaving spell work into my flesh. All rituals, even if they are not integrating one of the above, do modify your soul to one degree or another. Now these have been typical knowledge for spiritual growth, but since modification can go two ways there are things that can happen to you that alter your soul. Being in love is one such thing. This can be for the better as in the grand feeling you get when you are with someone who you love. It can also be a major detriment, when it goes wrong it can rip you apart even spiritually. Death affects most, your soul aches for those who you have lost unless you rejoice for their transition. Abuse will also cause trauma to your soul, especially when it is severe enough to nearly kill you or make you want to kill yourself. It causes a sickness that is not easily healed within your soul. Along with abuse, betrayal can rip you apart the worst. Whether it is abandonment or someone who breaks your explicit love and trust, it creates a rift that ripples in your future and can prevent any progression until you heal.
To write this I have looked within and back upon my progression and well regression. I have noticed that there seems to be a cycle of augmentation and diminishment over the decades. I was raised in a way that gave me little to no self-worth, my spirit felt greatly repressed by this. Having to hide who and what I was to avoid negative repercussions, going back into my egg so to speak. As a teen I was in a different situation and I started to spiritually awaken as I could finally emerge as myself. I hatched and grew, even though it created a bit of a psychosis since I didn't understand what was going on. I landed in an abusive marriage, but he let me explore myself as I chose how. Despite being able to be spiritually open, I suffered because of being beaten, shot, stabbed, etc. by the man who supposedly loved me. My spirit suffered, broken like my body, yet not healing as quickly, it diminished back into hiding. I got divorced and worked many introspective techniques to heal myself, I started to emerge and grow again. I thrived, especially after I fell in love with and married someone who was a soul mate, grew exponentially despite his mental and emotional abuse. When he left my soul shattered like a giant mirror hit with a nuke, I even suffered a reality break and my heart broke (literally, I had anxiety attacks to the level I had daily minor heart attacks). After several years of working with all of the above techniques I have begun to pick up the pieces. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to heal it all, I still feel soul-sick.
Obviously I have been employing many techniques: trance-work, blood rites, rituals, spending time in the ocean and in the arts. I am orchestrating a transformation to bring my soul's appearance on the outside. I feel that these practices not only rip open my subconscious, but they bind my body and soul together to work as one (which they don't usually, there is a distinction between the two since my soul seems to have a disdain for humans). I have this drive in the back of my mind that if I can morph my body into a more recognizable vessel for my soul then it may calm down and not be so resentful to be here. I could be more at one with myself, work towards healing my soul, and work towards purely healing myself and becoming who I am supposed to be.
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