Musings of a Dragonatrix

version 1 of a larger article of Ama-Tiamat and the 218 to be included with my oracle deck. I will be working on expanding and editing as I get closer to finishing my oracle cards.  Ama Ushumgal Sumun Tiamat Ama-Tiamat is the Cosmic Universe, while her energy is the Acosmic (anti-cosmic) energy current. She existed before time with her mate, Ada-Abzu. Their waters mixed (her salt water and his fresh water) mixed in her Womb, the Primordial Void. They created the first of the gods while they dreamt their dark dreams. She created a home for their children; some residing in an area of darkness and quiet, some living in light areas and living in ruckus. Those who valued the serenity of the stillness of darkness plead with Ama-Tiamat to do something about the children who where making all of the noise in their version of living. At first she did not want to do anything because they were all her children. Those light dwellers (who became to be known as Anunnkai) felt danger comi...

This retrograde was rough. I had the flu then once I got my immune system bone broth so it could fight, it found sinus infection I hadn't known about before! Also had this horrid experience trying to get to the neurologist where I missed two buses and hurt myself, almost being late. Then the car... oh the car: I noticed my shifting was sticking for a month or so. It started randomly stalling too. One day it started making a rattle followed by this hiss that sounded like a freed wheel when I hit the clutch. I went to this place I've gone for years, my family has gone there over 10 years. The guy swore it was my water pump only. So he fixes the water pump and thermostat for 651$. I feel like it was a bit high for the shop and no way does the water pump make the shifting symptoms or the wheel noise, but repair price lower than most places so fine. Then two days later I'm driving to the new endo in heavy traffic. It is doing the same damned thing as I took it in for, sans the ...

Funny how I thought there was going to be a reading about my health. Never mind, my ass got called out by the kola nuts! Lol On Wed, I participated in an IFA consultation. It came back with so many deep and random correlations with many aspects with my life beyond the issue that I had went in for the reading. I have been in deep contemplation over it ever since. I won't get into the full reading, it was three Baba's worth of interpretations of like 6 different verses so it was long and involved. But what the correlations that really stick out I will touch upon and how they interlace: - I am a naturally powerful spiritualist . Yes, this is something I picked up on as a child and have always known. - I am meant to be a diviner, perhaps IFA is calling to me . I don't know about most of the more popular divination techniques as I was not able to develop those despite practice. But I have always been strong in dreams and channeling, as an automatic artist . - I have a natur...

Ne Izi Gar is the Mesopotamian Month of Ghosts per the Nippur calendar. It lasts a whole month at the end of our summer that is devoted to the ancestors, like a Ramadan to the Dead. There appears to be three ways this is celebrated among Sumerian Reconstructionists: honour them once with offerings at the beginning and leave the offerings through the month, honour Inana's descent then rise into the Underworld, or do daily prayers and offerings to the dead. Here is what I did followed by my reflections: I called upon Nehebkau, an Egyptian serpent dragon who guards the gates of the Underworld, delivers food offerings to the dead, and protects against the venom of vipers and scorpions. I asked him to open the gates and make sure the dead got their offerings. The daily work had incense, prayers, shared meals, meditation, etc. to all of the dead. I did not limit it to my own ancestors. I did call to my family to try to bridge gaps that were impassible in life. After weeks of work I sti...

It's odd, but 3 times today when messing with muscle testing I failed the basic "my name is [...]" statement. Instead of my given name passing, when I stated my dragonkin name it passed. I am not myself today; it is a wonder there are conflicts, conflicting feelings between rage and anxiety, blanks in my mental ability, and odd speech patterns... well I'm more myself than the ego. I'm just a mix of the dragon soul presenting and human ego trying to keep control and they are conflicting. I wonder if I'll flip fully which blanks my memory fully or how long it will be until I calm back into full human control again.

Through out ancient human history, the ocean has housed our deities. The eldest of cultures has it as our mother or the blood of our mother (we find this in science as the evolutionary theory that all life began in the sea). It eventually went from our mother to powerful gods to demons to a conduit for the mighty dead. As humans we have always had a deep fascination and love for the sea even as modern societies forgot the spiritual connections. The Surfrider Foundation is great for recognizing our origins in the ocean by calling her Mom still during their fund raising events like “Music for Our Mother Ocean.” It was one of the reasons why I got into supporting them to be honest. If you revere the ocean, or water, as our mother still and return to her when you have a problem then you can release your pains to her just like you would a human mother. Water has several meanings depending on who you speak to and what era you look at. I tend to work from a shamanistic perspective as we...

There are many channeling techniques in the psychic gift basket. Some people are innately skilled with scrying, others with mediumship. I am going to talk a little bit about Automatic Art. You may have heard about Automatic Writing (where the person channels through writing), this is similar. In Automatic Art I channel messages through art. I use this in a variety of ways: - Channel a Psychological Problem : I talk to someone who is experiencing an issue. I use my gift of getting people to surrender their vulnerabilities to me to dredge out what the root problem is. Then I start seeing an image through the connection that is established. I will then create and interpret the piece. - Channel the Self : Much like the above, it requires digging into a root, making an image, then interpretation. This is where I connect with a part of me and ask a question, draw an image, then interpret the answer. (If you do this with automatic writing it looks like a schizophrenic piece with two differ...

After losing a medium sized friend circle of strong feminine energy women I have found myself in a slow slide into depression. I look for that strength in me but I hear the voices of the past (records if you have read my blog on that) tell me how much it's not there, no one cares, nothing I do matters, etc. I don't find that strength unless I'm backed into a corner and have to defend myself, then much like the days I had the PTSD black outs I snap into aggression mode and gain a backbone. If I can do it then I should be able to do it every day, all the time-- but how. I used to feel content daily, strong and happy. I had a quiet and healing life. I knew it was getting time to get back to the job I was put here for and it's a bitch. I also knew I was not healed enough for it. But I'll be damned if my friends didn't up and disappear over some superficial bs. It was not too long after deciding to try to kill myself via starving myself to make a point to the medica...

The Elder Laws of Magick are: no fear, no doubt, and no guilt. These laws can be understood two ways. The first way is obvious. If something will cause you one of those three states of being, do not do it. Carl Jung theorized that fear, doubt, and guilt weighed twice as heavy upon the soul and knowledge removes them (as illustrated below) . MR=K+E^-[2(F+D+G)] Magickal Result = Knowledge + Energy ^ -[2(Fear+Doubt+Guilt)]  ***Where 2 is the Hermetic Axiom "as it is above, so should it be below" MR= 1+1^-[2(0+0+0)] >>> MR= 1+1 = 2 The second way is much tougher but more rewarding. You remove those mental states from your soul so that you never feel them again. Anyone who has experienced fear, doubt, and guilt knows how debilitating they can be versus progress. Even in something as simple as getting out of bed when you are feeling unwell can be affected by fear and doubt. Or the pain of guilt driving a girl to starve herself because she does not look...