Rant on Empaths

It has come to me in a realization that empaths don't feel something about someone, they pick up how that person feels about themselves. When I was forcing myself to feel self-doubt cause I could not get myself to believe in common morals and ethics, I'd get a lot more "you're in turmoil" or "you're evil" from sensitives. Now that I just accepted that I don't believe in them and go about my life in my amoral way and stopped trying to understand why I couldn't swallow the bs and now I get "you're a good person", "you're very happy" "you're loving" .... really now?

The big change is my body language. When I was emotionally hurting myself I looked like it. They can try to say they were reading my energy, but the way I spoke, acted, portrayed myself showed I was not happy. Now that I shed caring, I've been walking around confident, strong and sure of myself. This puts off a very different result in how people read me. I speak in a more confident way, even in my writing, the body language, all has changed. They may be thinking they're reading my energy, but anyone could read my body language and tell I didn't feel well.

Doesn't make me or my beliefs any less "evil" to outsider's eyes, just I don't feel they are wrong anymore so I'm not acting like I'm wrong.

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