NDEs

Near death experiences are a hot topic for most people. As a species were are fascinated by death and as a result we're really fascinated by the concept of NDEs. A bit ago I had a suicide attempt that was really close. I was interrupted by someone finding me in the shower and getting me a baby sitter for the day to make sure I wasn't going to do anything stupid again.

During the attempt I saw a dark mist surround me and the familiar scenery from my home realm. My "grandmother" looked at me with rage in her fiery eyes. She flapped her wings in agitation at me and snorted a hot smoke in my direction. "You are not allowed to leave that shell yet. You are not done." It felt like I was being flung back into the fleshbag I inhabit. I came to with someone pulling me out of the shower and I heard my "grandmother's" voice, "do not do that again."

Most will say that during a NDE you see light and clouds. Almost to the level that if you see something else you didn't have an NDE. I've gotten an idea that when you die you'll go to what you've prepared yourself for. I saw the same realm that I see when I trance or go into dreams. It was almost no different than if I was trancing.

There are several versions of the thought we can create our afterlife down to a joke about it. Maybe all these people who wanted the light in the darkness got that and those are the ones who reported it. And hell, if they are truly seeing heaven through hell (the light in a dark abyss) I'll take hell. I'd rather sleep in the darkness than be accosted by light all the time.

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